Now back to the reason for this particular post.....as I was out for a run after school last week, clearing my mind and thinking about the future, this ever so quite voice seemed to be stirring my heart about future deliveries. Yes, I do mean birthing-a-child type deliveries. Do not ask me why or how my mind wandered to this topic, other than through the stirring of a divine whisper. If you have read my post describing my birth story you may be wondering why I would even bother wasting my time thinking about future delieveries, as it was pretty set it stone that I would be having repeat c-sections from this point on. I know, trust me....I agree. You see, I just can't really explain it but I have been feeling like a VBAC may be in my future. I have spent weeks researching the subject, and if you know me, more times than not, researching is something I obssesively do....many times to my disadvantage. In my initial search, the risk of having a uterine rupture was way too terrifying for me to even consider a VBAC. Once uncovering the actual statistics of a rupture, I realized that I was in more danger of this happening during my previous delivery when I was induced with than I will be with a VBAC. So aside from the rupture, the number one thing I have going against me is the awful delivery I had with Wes. This is also the primary reason my doctor is pushing for a repeate c-section. While I understand my doctor's view, I also figure, what's it hurt to try? I might as well give it a shot. I mean, yes, it could end up being an extremely long delivery again resulting in a c-section if I am not able to push out baby #2. Not that Brandon and I necessarily want five kids, but I am also not thrilled about that door being shut due to repeat c-sections. I think I should give it a try. Maybe. ;)
I understand that you may be asking yourself at this point, "okay, so is Anna pregnant?" Nope. Although Brandon and I would love to be at that point again, we are still working on getting Wes' hospital bills paid off. BUT, this is a big decision and I certainly want to feel at peace about it no matter what I decide. I would be very interested to hear opinoins out there. Have you atempted a VBAC? Do you know people who have successfully had a VBAC? Let me know, I would love to hear!
Also, here is an amazing blog I came across in my research that was truly inspiring when considering a VBAC. Check it out! This is a birth blog, so the pics are slightly graphic...can't say I didn't warn you!
http://midwifethinking.com/2011/02/23/vbac-making-a-mountain-out-of-a-molehill/
I don't have kids, but my aunt had a c-section and then had vaginal births with all her other four kids afterwards, even in to her 40s. No problems at all. Maybe go to another doctor too, just to get a second opinion. Reading your birth story, it sounds like the induced you, and maybe little Wes was just not as ready as the doctors thought he was to come out. I have heard horror stories about inducing, just like your story, and they have almost all led to my friends needing c-sections. Maybe not being induced, but just letting the baby come naturally, is the best option when considering a vaginal birth. That way, your body can respond naturally to what it is feeling, rather than responding to a chemical. I know what you mean about the research though. My hubby won't even let me look online about pregnancy anymore cause I always end up saying "nope no kids", when in my heart I really want one. :)
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